I'm sorry - A message shred by Decent/Mimarigoth/Mon
"A Failing Inspiration"
First of all, before I start, I'm sorry. I am truly sorry. I've been so naive, I overlooked myself and my goals. Every day and every night, non-stop, I overthought about it. I felt so alone and I overreacted with all of my surroundings. I threw myself out from the middle and I felt like everything is falling apart, that I am a big failure. I seek for something I don't need and I expected too much. I overthought of it that it came to the point that I misled myself. Then I realized, I became so selfish. I never thought of what I actually wanted to do in the first place, I did it. I saw what I came in life to see. My reason why I started this, my goal, I actually reached it. And now, I can't be the person I am not, I saw myself so bad, not knowing that I actually did good. I looked so down to myself, but I am actually a person of someone's beginning and it's really heart-warming to know.
So to all of you, I am sorry, for being a failing inspiration. For being a big motivational mistake. I've seen what I wanted to see. I don't want you all to stop. Whatever have you started, finish it. I want to see how you will all end. And as for me, I know now where to continue. I did my part. I had my fun, my pain, and I realized my mistake. So I am sorry, for being wrong. For wrongfully complaining about your ignorance and missing parts that I actually had. Now it is time for me to jump to something new. I've done what I have to do yet there is more for me to conquest. Keep writing songs? Play music? Video games? Stories? I don't know, I've done all that and I saw how I inspired you guys, that's already satisfying, I don't know if there's anything I could ask. I'm happy enough now to see the next part. I went from being so awful, selfish and a stupid overthinker like everything is bad but then everything is actually really good. So I am really sorry. To each and every single one of you, for me being a mistake, I'm sorry. Yes, everything fell apart.......
...but it's time to pick up the pieces.
There's so many things I still want to say, but this is all for now,
I'm sorry.
"A Failing Inspiration"
- Decent
Forgive me.
